Following a very unfortunate personal incident, and some somewhat disappointing results of a weigh-in, I've recently experienced a bout of apathy about my school work. I've got some questions that are difficult to answer, and I'm also having to ask myself what I see myself doing after school. What can I do with a Philosophy degree? The skills I've gained from philosophy will contribute in a major way to any profession I choose, but the problem is landing that first job. I'm so ready to get out of the ivory tower and experience life- but I'm wary of the financial pressures that will bring, as well as the crushing realities of the loneliness of bachelorhood. I'm not financially ready to support a family, though, and I'm not emotionally or spiritually ready to accept the gynocracy that so many American marriages become. It seems that while I was struggling to find a place for myself, I missed out on establishing just what my place in life is. I don't want to be swept up into events that I can't control, and I fear that that prevents me from participating in a lot of nice things.

The big question I can't answer right now is: What can I do with my degree that I couldn't do before? Have these hard-fought years been a complete waste? Should I just have gotten a job?

I sense that there is something out there that I'll gain from this experience. I can even think of a few things off hand. But I still can't shake the growing anxiety about what will happen to me if I don't figure this out.