Just a quick update. I've renewed my mind about my weight-loss and fitness regime and I'm really very confident that my slow, steady, sustainable lifestyle changes will produce the results I want. I'm on the path toward better health, longer and more fulfilling life, and self-satisfaction. I've implemented changes and I'm excited to follow through and see positive results.

I'm getting over the flu this week. I've recovered from most of the symptoms but I'm still pretty weak and disoriented. My sleep schedule has been inverted, as tends to be the case whenever I have half an excuse. I'm going to try to correct it, but it won't be easy, and I hate to deprive myself of the rest necessary to aid my recovery.

I had to miss work this week, which was unfortunate. I'll have to plan around the resulting budget shortfall, but it's nothing I can't handle. Soon my probationary period will be over and I'll be able to take sick days in this sort of situation. I'll get vacation days, too, but the most exciting development that will mean is that I can no longer be fired at the drop of a hat. I'll now be subject to a somewhat lengthy disciplinary process, and I've never given any indication that I would need disciplining, so barring any financial catastrophe I'll be secure in my job, for better or worse. I'm enjoying being able to financially plan, but I still find that an unsatisfactorily large portion of my time is spent alone. When I'm at work I'm mostly alone, and when I'm here I'm always alone, since my roommates have returned home for Christmas. It's unfortunate. I don't try to work it out like that. Quite the contrary. It just always works out like that. It's a situation that needs to be amended, but until I graduate I think it'll stay the same.

Graduation. I have one more semester of college to go, and it doesn't start until the 17th of January. I'm glad for a reprieve from school, but I wish my social life were more active. When I've recovered from this illness I'm gonna do some hanging out with some people. A week is a long time to be down and around the apartment.

I'm pretty burned out. I just have a couple of big obstacles left between me and the winter break, but they're fairly big and I need to get them right. I'm having a really hard time mustering the energy and inclination to keep going, but it won't be long now. I'll get to take a break and then get on with my last semester. There are a lot of unanswered questions. I'll have to proceed despite not having the answers.

How absurd. But such is this life.